Could you stay a while so I don’t have to be alone.
Could you stay a while because inside my head is a war zone.
Could you stay a while so I can focus on you and not me.
Could you stay a while because I’m scared I’ll have a panic attack and never be free.
Could you stay a while because I don’t trust what I might do to myself to end this pain.
Could you stay a while, please I can’t seem to ever shut off my brain.
Could you stay a while because I don’t know that I’ll survive another day.
“Could you stay a while” I can never seem to actually say…
I remember having these thoughts super young but not being able to get them out of my mouth. I’d watch myself in my head begging and pleading with people to help me, screaming inside but never could get the words out and would hide behind a fake smile disguising the battle I was losing.
I’ve been in those dark places. They were my normal life through childhood and young adulthood. And the professionals that were supposed to help me told me there was no end to my suffering, only managing it.
Medication upon medication… I began to lose all grasp of reality under my medically induced pharmacology coma.
But I’m living proof that you can be free. Totally free. Not numbed to reality but free and alive, passionate and thriving! And live in true emotional freedom, deep peace, and tremendous joy.
And so I gratefully stay a while with my clients, one by one, till they’re free too so no one ever has to endure hearing they can only “manage” the suffering.
My childhood/young adult pain is my purpose in this life. And I wouldn’t change it for anything.
So…. I stay a while.
And I get to witness lives set free from the silent suffering.
You are loved.
